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Ārti Nivedana*

“Submission of Anguish”

 

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paramārādhya deva!

Most worshipful lord!

koto dīrgha dina dhari, tava caraṇa darśana lāgi,

For how many long days, to have darśana of your feet

mane mane karechinu āśā |

I have hoped in my heart of hearts

saba āśā nā purila, manoratha viphala haila,

All my hopes were not fulfilled, my wishes proven fruitless

āśābhaṅge duḥkhita e adhamā || (1)

This wretch is saddened at the dashing of her hopes

 

 

bujhiyāchi bhāla mate, vinā bhāgye nāhi mile,

I have understood well that without fortune one does not attain

śrī gurura caraṇa darśana |

Darśana of śrī guru’s feet

mama manda-bhāgya lāgi, saṅgopane sadā kāñdi,

Owing to my poor fortune, I cry constantly in private

dhik dhik mora e’ jīvana || (2)

Fie, fie on this life of mine

 

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āmi to’ adhama ati, tāye ati manda-mati,

I am extremely wretched, my intelligence extremely dull

kṛpā nā haila mama prati |

Mercy has not come to me

prabhu! tumi to’ karuṇā-sindhu, adhama janāra bandhu,

Master! You are an ocean of compassion, friend of the wretched

upekṣile ki ha’be mora gati ?? (3)

If you neglect me, what will be my destiny??

 

 

yadi-o aparādhī āmi, tumi to’ ekamātra gati,

Even though I am an offender, you are my sole refuge

dayā karo, nā karaha vañcana |

Have mercy, do not deceive

tumi vāñchā-kalpataru, mora icchā pūrṇa karu,

You are a wish-fulfilling tree; fulfill my wishes

diyā tava abhaya caraṇa || (4)

Giving me your fearless feet

 

—Śrīmatī Umārāṇī

Chunchura (Hooghly)

 

 

*The author has conveyed her anguish for not having had darśana of her śrī guru-pādapadma, parama-pūjyapāda parivrājakācārya tridaṇḍisvāmī Śrī Śrīmad Bhaktivedānta Vāmana Mahārāja.